a story

You know what’s sad about love?

It’s when you happen to know that there’s just no hope for you being together yet

 you still pray to make it works.

It’s when your mind says let go but your heart says hold on.

And most of all, it’s when no matter how you try to forget him/her you just can’t,

Because of the fact that you still love him/her and you just don’t know why.

Try to loving someone you have loved before

 and you’ll realize that it will either lead to the same thing that happened before

or something better.

Not hard isn’t it?

“But why not try loving someone that doesn’t love you back?

It’s either you see yourself giving up or dying daily”

-Greys Anatomy-

“If you love and get hurt, love more..

If you love more and get hurt more, love even more..

If you love even more and get hurt even more,

Love some more until it hurts no more..”

-Shakespeare-

The gauge of how much you truly treasure something or someone

Is not how happy you are with them,

But how sad you are when you lose them.

One grows distant from another not because of indifference,

But because of fear.

There’s the fear that the hurt gets greater as one get closer..

A recognition of the tendency to fall deeply,

 and consequently drown in a quicksand of stupid irrationalities..

sometimes, what drives one away is not the absence of emotion.

But the overwhelming presence of it..

Falling in love is never a decision, always by chance.

Staying in love is never a chance, always by choice.

And falling out of love is never a choice, always a decision.

attraction come to us by chance.

But  true love that lasts is truly a choice

Listen me,

Fate brings you together,

But it still up to you to make it happen.

We may meet someone by chance,

But loving and staying with him/her is still  a choice..

Just because my heart doesn’t have tears,

It doesn’t mean my heart doesn’t cry..

Just because you always see me strong,

It doesn’t mean there’s nothing wrong.

Sometimes I choose to pretend I’m happy,

So I don’t have to explain to people who would never even understand.

Smiling is always easier than explaining to all why I am sad..

It’s never the tears that measure the pain,

Sometimes it’s the smile we fake..

A person who truly loves you is someone who sees the pain in your eyes

When everyone still believes in the smile on your face..

The person you love  most has the best capacity to make you the happiest person in the world,

And may give you the worst heartache you can never imagine..

Time can heal wounds,

but it can never get back what we once had and lost.

Time can’t tell when or how we would move on after all was said and done..

In life, I have done every way of fighting.

Heard every painful truth.

Been in every heartbreaking scene,

And felt every dreadful feeling...

I thought going thru it all,

will then make me realize that I have to stop the fight at least to save a little for myself..

but, you know what’s funny?

Its when I seem to be so much tired of it all,

But still I can’t just quit no matter how hard it is.

And I have to continue hoping that one day,

I’ll be able to find someone w ho could love me not just “right” but “real”..

Love is like giving someone a gun.

Having them point it at your heart.

And trusting them to never pull the trigger..

I don’t know why we all hang on to something we know better off letting go..

It’s like we scared to lose what we don’t even really have..

Some of us say we would rather have that something that absolutely nothing..

But the truth is, “to have it halfway is harder than not having it at all’’..

I want to know someone who could ease the pain that I have,

Stay here till every drop of tears that I have had fallen.

Till every strength that I have has already passed out,

Then I can no longer move..

Time may take us away,

Space may keep us apart,

Rumors and hurts may break us down,

Yet, no matter where life leads us,,

I will still take care of my heart until the right time..

by: NNMM